The Days of Time~

It has been quite some time since I have posted on here. I often write stuff for my classes on campus and am told I should ad it to the blog- I have this folder of stuff to post, and never seem to get around to doing so. The days flow by and I am caught up in the wave of actions that encompass my daily living and prevent me from doing all the other things I want to do- like post on here....... then again, "prevent" is a pretty strong word, maybe it is more like I procrastinate because I focus on other things. Truly though, this is an extremely therapeutic hobby for my little mind to do. So procrastinating is only keeping me from quenching this little creative outlet I have that helps me focus forward, clarify my thoughts, and portray in words for you to read & ponder; all my little inner individual workings of subjects in my mind. I will soon begin to get more proactive on here, instead off all the constraining social networks I have been privy to and engaged in, in order to entertain myself on mindlessly for the past year or so. At least on here this is my content, uncensored and uncontrolled by the schema of social constraints and personalities of the regular mass media social networks. Here I am free to play "writer"- "developer"- or "advocate".  To let my personality prevail to express that which haunts me, inspires me, entertains me, and brings me joy. I do not have to know my readers, nor do they know me necessarily- but they are adults, here to read, comment, enjoy, or hate what I have to say. I think that is the ultimate creative freedom for someone who enjoys writing as much as I do! This is a place to be free- to be me. I love to write and think and let my voice take a shape, an idea or a picture, and a statement to its fullest potential. So welcome to my Blog those of you who are new to it, and those of you who have been here for awhile. I hope to make it take flight again, full of passion, compassion and the vigor I used to apply to my personal writings of the past. There are a few pages of archived writings here- so enjoy the old posts and I hope you stick around to see the new ones too!

Tell the Canadian government: Stop your tar sands wolf kills!

Tell the Canadian government: Stop your tar sands wolf kills!: "Tell the Canadian government: Stop your tar sands wolf kills!


It just gets worse and worse.

To make up for the fact that rapid tar sands oil mining is threatening caribou herds by destroying vast swaths of rainforest habitat in Alberta, the Canadian government has called for strychnine poisoning and aerial shooting of thousands of wolves in areas of tar sands mining.1

Tell Prime Minister Harper: Stop Canada's planned wolf killings!"

'via Blog this'

and here is the note I wrote to accompany my signature on the petition:

I have spent much of my time in Canada over the years. I have relatives in Quebec, Montreal, and Alberta. This project does not just effect Canadian soils, it effects the USA too. My outlook on this project is not supportive to say the least. There are far better and viable options that are available to both the Canadian and Us Government to provide us with plenty of Energy using green sources. Such as wind, and solar energy. Please do not tell me that this is too "expensive" to do- the resources are there for Solar Panels that are inexpensive- and the amount of stored energy from wind is more then we can use. In addition, there are methane burners that can be provided to the mass beef and dairy industry that produce huge amounts of energy. By building this pipe line, it falls into the old saying, "To rob Peter, to pay Paul"... basically to save a penny, and pad the oil industries pockets- and convince us you are providing jobs, you build this pipeline- but in the end, you are robbing the people of the future, of clean air, water, and valuable resources- you are doing a quick fix, to a permanent problem, with a band aid that in the end, will cost thousands more in problems. You are desecrating forest lands- which increase the green house effects that are already an imminent problem world wide. You are killing of precious wild life and beautiful things that should be around for generations to come. This is not just about us, and the here and now. This is about a delicate eco-system, and that includes the wolves. They are a majestic, and integral part of the natural eco-system of north america... and to cruelly and viciously kill them off for a pipeline, in the end, is compiling the problems already facing us economically, environmentally, and long term due to the selfish nature of mankind. Please, won't you reconsider taking such actions and find a solution that is a better policy on all of these levels?

Thank you for your time,

Ms Cody Ann Kimball

See? all it takes is a few moments of your time to be proactive about something you think might make a difference!

A 17-Year-Old Does SlutWalk @ MS magazine Oct 5 2011

This was a fantastic article in M.S. Magazine- and I had to respond to it!
 http://ow.ly/6NzsU read article here!

No means NO ! Maybe means NO ! NOTHING means NO! Yes means YES and I HAVE THE RIGHT AT ANY POINT THEREAFTER TO SAY NO too!

It astounds me to think that there is not a single woman in my circle of friends or family who was not been raped and/or molested, at some point in their lives by a man. I by no means am a man hater- so please do not take that statement in that context. What is profound is that as a whole, the male populous see's themselves as the "protector" of their mothers, sisters, and loved ones. Despite that, a huge percentage of them are in fact violators, and perpetuators of rape. When asked, many rapists are against rape, but do not consider their acts to be rape! Many case studies show this is a large contributor to men’s actions towards women. One thing to consider as a "stimulant" to this behavior is pornography and the constant domination, and degradation of women IN it. Men see this as enlightened, sexual power; then as the consumers of pornography they are desensitized to this fantasy  they masturbate to- and THAT furthers the idea that domination, forcefulness, degradation and manipulation make any woman truly want to have sex (even if she says NO!) because after all, that is what we are made for in the eyes of  most males. It is a social norm, and a romanticized one at that, that it is ok for men to utilize pornography. It is seen as a way to get off and ultimately leads to skewed ideas about what women like, want, and mean when they say NO! Not all men are like this certainly- but there is allot that are. I commend all of you for your participation in "Slut Walk" and hope it certainly sends a message.... this was a beautifully written piece... and unfortunately the realist in me, or maybe it is the pessimist, thinks that why you are out there slaving to send this message, the majority of perps. are out degrading some woman they think is a slut and only worthy of getting F**ked despite her words or actions that clearly say NO!! or maybe, they are sitting home, masturbating to porn to further propagate their fantasy world so woman as a whole, can suffer the consequences of this fantasy. All in All, I hope law enforcement, including the FBI which just had meetings in D.C. this week to review their standards for RAPE under FEDERAL LAW and see if they are "worthy" of being updated and revised.... mark that word,,,, worthy.. like women, often ignored and seen as subservient....wonder what that will get us? I remember being called a slut and brutally teased at the age of 12- because I was pretty and got attention; I was called horrific things in school. The bullying was so bad at one point; I did not even want to go to school and would cry every morning. and p.s...I was a Virgin until I was two weeks shy of my 16^th Birthday. So personally, to see the word SLUT taken back from men, and empowered by woman, has a personal sense of “POWER” to me because of its derogatory use towards me. To see its use switched gears by the fact you now  use it to empower and stop RAPE? That leads to great GRATIFICATION! Anyways, keep up the good work,  and pray it impacts many....

The day whisks by, faster and faster it seems as the years go on. I remember when I was a small child, maybe 7 or so, sitting in grade school and thinking about the future- to my horror, I realized how long it would take me to graduate, and how old I would be. It seemed so far off, and such a long wait, and I just wanted to grow up and get on with it!! I hated school, hated being classified as a child, and wanted the freedoms of adulthood. I knew from early on that I did not want children. From the age of 3 to be exact- I remember verbalizing this to my mother who routinely told me I would change my mind when I "grew up"..... but maybe it was the sense in the back of my mind, that I would never have that opportunity to have children anyways. As I grew, and hit the wonderful age to bring the pains of puberty, it was discovered I had a condition that eventually meant I would need surgery in my 20's. I would not be able to keep my "parts" to reproduce... leaving me with a play ground with no consequences so to speak!! YIPPEEE... how liberating! Now I was growing, maturing, and finding my path. I remember my elders always telling me, "don't wish your life away, it goes so fast!! You don't want to grow up to soon!"..... boy were they right, does it go fast! My only regrets are that I did not seek my college education right after high school, instead of 25 years later- and my other regret is that in wishing my time away- to grow, and be an adult, I lost precious years with those loved ones that taught me the good things. The people I loved so dearly, like my Grandparents, and a few dear friends, are now part of those years I sped through! I wish I could go back, just to have them a bit longer- just a few more days, or a few more moments of those precious times with them. If I were a Mom, or a Grandma, the one thing I would tell that smart little girl that wants to grow up so fast is that it is ok to wish time to go by to take you to your goals and dreams- but if it goes too fast, you loose the extra moments with those that you love. Those precious times that you cherish and curb you into who you are, are only here once! Nothing else that speeds by, or is in the past, or to come ever really matters but family and loved ones! I still am blessed with my parents, my Auntie, and my Dear Uncle, great friends, and partners... and now, I just want time to slow down so I can have them for the rest of my time.... yes, each minute is worth more then you know, so please, please, don't wish it away!

The Meaning of Frustration~

posted as a reply on another Blog I follow~ Frustration and what I think it means:

Sometimes the frustration we feel, is truly our own road block discovered- what I mean by this is, that when we reach a point of frustration, it is a time to re-evaluate our boundaries, or projections, our thoughts and beliefs- it is a chance to "EVOLVE" and become a better person and the only way that is possible is to be honest with ourselves to determine "why" we are frustrated. Sometimes we discover that we need to stand out ground about what ever the situation was that frustrated us, and that is self love, and self preservation. Sometimes we realize that we have imposed a rigidity that truly is suffocating our ability to change and the frustration we feel, is only due to the realization that we resent change! Change can be scary, and a real eye opener- but to embrace your frustration and get to the core of it, means to really grow and be a happier person with broader horizons!

Is KINDNESS a dead thought process?

I often contemplate how I treat others, and how people treat the world around them. I think that my educational process is a gamut of events in my life, like being raised as a street wise kid, independent, being a cop for roughly 15 years, and my upper level education. I think about how the education I have received and continue to pursue has opened my eyes so much to how others feel and live. How society's social norms and constraints open the door for others to be oppressed enough to feel they don't belong, can't cope, and even kill themselves. This past week, we had 2 youths in the United States kill themselves due to Bullying.... one was 11, and one was 14 and both knew they were gay or bi-sexual already. Now for me, between all the science, Biology, Anatomy, and Psychology culminated with a BIG DOSE of Gender studies I have taken lately, I can see how diverse the existence is of the human body, and human mind can be. Not only can I see the diversity in its existence, but also in how evolution, genetics,and conditioning has made variances in every aspect of the human body, emotions, desires and the mind.  What we think is "normal" is in fact a masked perception caused by social constraints and vocalized norms. The fact is, many variances are never aloud to flourish, be discussed, or even acknowledged. These social constraints are peremptorily and preemptively conveyed by Christianity and the American Medical Association standards of human treatment and human behavior. I am NOT knocking religion, as it is a fundamental part of my life and my family history in ways unimaginable to most people- and that in itself is another blog. BUT what I do find frustrating is that in the interpretation of religion and the Bible, we have lost sight of what it stands for, and in its place allowed the humanistic, ego, male voice, and twisted presentation to basically exercise control of the human population and maintain a Anglo- Saxon dominated world. So variances, are not allowed to be "NORMAL".  Things like LGBTQ and Inter-Sexed are not even discussed in most realms of society. Did you know that 17% of all babies are born with an unidentifiable gender because of their genitalia? They are surgically altered and determined to be ONE sex by the physician at birth and sometimes doctors do not not even tell the mother of the surgery and sex determination EVER. THEY (the doctors choose it) think that it is easier for the baby and the mother to not be "faced" with this "abnormal" situation... the only reason it is abnormal, is because it is hidden!! The amount of incidence is high, and it is now believed that many Transgendered individuals were actually born intersexed. WHY? Because as transgender surgeries are now occurring more frequently, it is often found that a man who wants to be a woman, actually has partial ovaries internally when they go to remove male genitalia... and that women who want to be a man, often have internal testies. There are also chromosomal differences too. We have treated these men and women in our culture as if they are freaks, and that this is a mental disorder- imagine, can you? to be trapped in the wrong body? To be treated horribly by society, and all along, this is not your fault, but is GODS making if you in fact believe the religious aspect, and if not, a human DNA mutation,and here society treats them awfully and as if it was their "CHOICE" to live in turmoil! or how about this:  Do you know that home births with midwives have a lower mortality rate for both mother and child then traditional hospital births? Did you know that 29% of hospital births end up becoming C-sections because in that pretty little IV the mom has, Patossin is given to "force" the labor along so you do not occupy a birthing suite for more then 12 hours, so the hospital has a high turn over rate and makes more money? Why? Because WOMEN are viewed as weak, incapable, and at risk- needing medical intervention to do a process we have done for thousands of years sans intervention! The USA has the highest rate of C-sections of any where else in the world, with the highest rate of maternal, and infant mortality in medically assisted child births out of ANYWHERE else in the world! I would call that some discrimination against women to view them as "fragile" and having incapable bodies to perform ONE of the exact tasks our bodies are made SUCCESSFULLY to do! Do you know that about 46% of war vettes suffer from PTSD and never get treated? This is because the government will not invest funds in that treatment of later onset illnesses because they want to pay only for immediate onset health and injuries (like amputees). Did you know that 38% of youths say they have been bullied enough at some point in school that they considered stopping/ dropping out of school and/ or even committing suicide?

Think about these statements- mull them over in your mind! I know they are varied, and maybe don't seem to connect- or maybe do not seem that important to you- maybe some offend you... and that is NOT my intention! What is my intention is to point out the lack of kindness- the lack of human emotion, and the lack of caring for others. Shunning others because they are different, or because of their gender, or because they have a debilitating mental health issue, or because you are stronger then them, or don't believe in what they do, and this is NOT ok!!! PLEASE consider your words, your thoughts, your actions towards others and be a better person from this point out! Teach your children to be kinder too! Know and realize, that others differences are not a threat to who you are, or your family- and that ignorance towards acceptance of these differences, no matter what they are, only leads to an ugly world!

I have placed a link to a beautiful and moving video that I think summarizes the whole point of this Blog. Please first, consider how this man is treated in the FIRST place,and then consider how is treated after his sign is changed! He should have had the kindness with out the change- But this also demonstrates the IMPACT of WORDS!!!


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If this does not make you think a bit, I am beyond words as to what else to say! Blessings to all and enjoy!

Impersonal, personalization through social networks...

I posted this on my Facebook account today- and I thought it might be relevant to many folks and the social avenues in their lives... so here it is:
     ok, I took what, 14 days off of Facebook... and what did I learn and realize?? Something deeply personal for me... that this is a very lonely place... yes, facebook is... it is part of the cyber world- the impersonal, lack of human emotion, affection and general personal interaction one gets from real friendships. Yes, I love all of you, my friends and family on here, don't get me wrong. There is an issue though which is prevalent in society's social world today though. A huge disconnect exists in what is supposed to be human interaction. We, the people, living in this busy world, knowing far too many people to truly enjoy a deep and meaningful relationship with ALL of them, replace the personal interaction, with good intentioned cyber love. Whether it be texting, or Facebook, or Myspace... or Twitter, or instant computer messaging... it is NOT the same thing as social interaction... it is not the same as a conversation with voice inflection and questions showing genuine interest in another human beings welfare. It does not include a hug if you are affectionate, or the emotion only eyes can display. Or the deepest healing element of mankind, which is also the most infectious of all..... DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS?? It is something we all need, and often lack... that is LAUGHTER folks... you ever hear a good laugh coming out of someone and begin to giggle too? Do you get that out of  "LOL" ??? Sure you can read funny stuff, see funny videos, and get a good laugh- but that is not the same as laughter from true human interaction.
What I realized for me personally, is that although it is great to be on here and read peoples posts, and keep up with people in a way, I felt  very lonely in the end of the day despite "reading Facebook". I realized in my two weeks off here, although I missed this social network, it does not replace what I get from you in person- even if in person, is on the phone. So, I will continue to stay on Facebook, and interact here... but that is not enough. Although I am a loner in many ways, and love my quiet times- I feel when I do want to socialize, I prefer from now on to talk to you, versus posting to you..... Life is short, and I want quality, not quantity in everything I do... and I want the same for you!! I want my interactions to BE personal, not guarded, and therefore from this point out, will pick and choose and re-evaluate what I get from Facebook and who is on i.m. friends list. The ones that are? Are far more then "cyber-buddies".... you are my friends, you mean alot to me, I value you and want to talk to you IN PERSON!  I hope you understand what I mean here, and I hope it makes you think about the quality of friendships in your own life too- to realize that posting to someone on Facebook is truly not MAINTAINING your friendships... it is just a component contributing to them..... and it is not enough to think that it is making someone feel like they are appreciated... you want them to know you care? Have some good olden day inspiration and have them over for dinner, or call them, or go visit them...... yes, thats what I figured out during my two weeks off of facebook my friends... thats all, a simple little realization that truly struck a chord in me... thanks for listening~