Friday, September 30, 2011
The day whisks by, faster and faster it seems as the years go on. I remember when I was a small child, maybe 7 or so, sitting in grade school and thinking about the future- to my horror, I realized how long it would take me to graduate, and how old I would be. It seemed so far off, and such a long wait, and I just wanted to grow up and get on with it!! I hated school, hated being classified as a child, and wanted the freedoms of adulthood. I knew from early on that I did not want children. From the age of 3 to be exact- I remember verbalizing this to my mother who routinely told me I would change my mind when I "grew up"..... but maybe it was the sense in the back of my mind, that I would never have that opportunity to have children anyways. As I grew, and hit the wonderful age to bring the pains of puberty, it was discovered I had a condition that eventually meant I would need surgery in my 20's. I would not be able to keep my "parts" to reproduce... leaving me with a play ground with no consequences so to speak!! YIPPEEE... how liberating! Now I was growing, maturing, and finding my path. I remember my elders always telling me, "don't wish your life away, it goes so fast!! You don't want to grow up to soon!"..... boy were they right, does it go fast! My only regrets are that I did not seek my college education right after high school, instead of 25 years later- and my other regret is that in wishing my time away- to grow, and be an adult, I lost precious years with those loved ones that taught me the good things. The people I loved so dearly, like my Grandparents, and a few dear friends, are now part of those years I sped through! I wish I could go back, just to have them a bit longer- just a few more days, or a few more moments of those precious times with them. If I were a Mom, or a Grandma, the one thing I would tell that smart little girl that wants to grow up so fast is that it is ok to wish time to go by to take you to your goals and dreams- but if it goes too fast, you loose the extra moments with those that you love. Those precious times that you cherish and curb you into who you are, are only here once! Nothing else that speeds by, or is in the past, or to come ever really matters but family and loved ones! I still am blessed with my parents, my Auntie, and my Dear Uncle, great friends, and partners... and now, I just want time to slow down so I can have them for the rest of my time.... yes, each minute is worth more then you know, so please, please, don't wish it away!
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